there are certain things i don't understand, and other things i take too far. when it's that close and you don't know what to do once you get to the finish line. you look around - sensing the moment and what's best to do, before the mad rush engulfs you and leaves you standing solitaire once again. it's not about things being sincere, it's me being sincerely wrong about things.* i am not corrected... and the weakness brings me down to my knees
*sincerity analogy from t.c.
Sunday, May 15, 2005
something about the way i do things comes off as being different to other people. granted, that's normal (and yet i do not want to define normalcy), i never seem to have the vibe that i want and i keep trying to tweak and pick at it. for a guy that's all about the flow, there's more disconnects than i would really like... and even if a ramble makes perfect sense to me, and wit is something i like to add in every conversation - simplicity tends to be the desired course and that's usually not the way i do things.
juiced up on 8:34 a.m.
Saturday, May 07, 2005
there are many times i've asked for time to slow down... i wanted to catch up and be able to do more things with what i've been given... for the past few days, i have been granted a less busy schedule, but still it feels that things are piling on... no matter the pace, this is still the lifestyle i lead... you can't escape the thoughts that keep playing in your head.
juiced up on 7:57 a.m.
Sunday, May 01, 2005
it happens unexpectedly - you just hurt the ones you love the most... there's a truth to that saying... maybe it's because you think, because of the way that they are, the way the two of you are... you can push them more... you can afford to have unspoken words between you, and you'll just get back to it later on... until the memories have faded, until they become just glimpses of a past life - no longer recognized. something that both of you neglected to work on... when you get past the blame, when you realize that the time lost can never be taken back... may what you remember bring you joy and not regret
juiced up on 6:55 p.m.