it's been a while

sometimes i laugh... people sometimes think they have me figured out. it's true, i'll lead them down one path thinking that i'm all about one thing... all the while knowing that it's not entirely true. sometimes people are just too quick to come to conclusions. i see nothing wrong in the decisiveness but it's always interesting for me to follow people's train of thoughts. sometimes, you have to check your predisposed attitude and find out if your assumptions that might have be right once are still valid. sometimes i'll miss the times when things were fairly simple, and it's been a while since i laughed.

weakened in a split second

there are certain things i don't understand, and other things i take too far. when it's that close and you don't know what to do once you get to the finish line. you look around - sensing the moment and what's best to do, before the mad rush engulfs you and leaves you standing solitaire once again. it's not about things being sincere, it's me being sincerely wrong about things.* i am not corrected... and the weakness brings me down to my knees

*sincerity analogy from t.c.

the way i do things

something about the way i do things comes off as being different to other people. granted, that's normal (and yet i do not want to define normalcy), i never seem to have the vibe that i want and i keep trying to tweak and pick at it. for a guy that's all about the flow, there's more disconnects than i would really like... and even if a ramble makes perfect sense to me, and wit is something i like to add in every conversation - simplicity tends to be the desired course and that's usually not the way i do things.

time remixed

there are many times i've asked for time to slow down... i wanted to catch up and be able to do more things with what i've been given... for the past few days, i have been granted a less busy schedule, but still it feels that things are piling on... no matter the pace, this is still the lifestyle i lead... you can't escape the thoughts that keep playing in your head.

a life worth rambling

it happens unexpectedly - you just hurt the ones you love the most... there's a truth to that saying... maybe it's because you think, because of the way that they are, the way the two of you are... you can push them more... you can afford to have unspoken words between you, and you'll just get back to it later on... until the memories have faded, until they become just glimpses of a past life - no longer recognized. something that both of you neglected to work on... when you get past the blame, when you realize that the time lost can never be taken back... may what you remember bring you joy and not regret

incoherent murmurs

when tiredness creeps in and pulls down on your eyes / you breathe for a second and then out of sight / like a shot in the head that felt so much needed / eyes roll under lids and they dance in their movements / the tempo of a pulse out of time with the ticking / pleads the bed's safe return - all the while you were sleeping.

on the heels of an argument

the whole essence of being misunderstood is that your intentions were made naught. by design or by blinded bias - it doesn't matter in the end if it happens. if there was any value for misconception, the price is higher than advertised... that being said, to understand is to analyze.. and if you were following too closely, you might be disappointed when they finally turn around...

works as expected

when it's not about aiming low. when it's about a non-existant flow.
things just happen as you reason through them. and you always win an argument when you had no point to begin with.

where do you begin to peel?

it began when i thought i could not blog. i still can't. i mean, who would read a blog of disconnected one-liners? \\ so here lies the premise, encouraged by starvingartist(s). and it does not bode well to start off with such a wordy / lengthy collection of lines.